Monday, April 4, 2011

We are afraid of the wrong things.

I am scared of doing something wrong that would lead me to go to jail. I am scared of prisons and the thought of confinement. I pray that with all the success I want and will achieve that I don't get greedy. It is easier to think that I would not be tempted, but when you are subject of the matter your thinking is different. Greed has led many people to be fraudulent and corrupt. Female correctional services are not different to male correctional services, you get the same treatment.

As a mother, my children need me for their growth and I wouldn't want lies being told to my children to cover my whereabouts. This would not ruin just my own life, but my children's perception of motherhood, childhood and life itself. I can't imagine what my children would think to find out I'm a criminal. In jail, you have no control over your life, someone else decides what you eat, when you eat and what you should do on every minute of every day. I would go crazy in this kind of environment, I feel claustrophobic being in small spaces.

If as a person you lie, eventually those lies catch-up to you. There is a family that I knew where the mother was a criminal. The children were told that their mother works in a tupperware company in Jo'burg. When she was in jail for crimes she had committed, her children were told she was in Jo'burg. She was hardly at home to give the children the love they needed and they were always with a nanny. Eventually the children were told that their mom was a fraudster when she had gone to jail for a long time. After many years of being in and out of jail, the eldest child also followed her mother's footsteps and became a fraudster.

Parents are a child's first mentors, role models and generally people they look up to before finding people on the outside to be role models. Charity begins at home, so parents need to be good role models for their children.

2 comments:

  1. We all need to practice what we preach especially as parents we need to be an example to our kids. On a lighter note are you scared of being bullied (uboyfriend) in prison :-)

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  2. I think its healthy to be scared from time to time!

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